I’m a completely different person than I’ve ever been before. I know we all grow and change… but my change has been all encompassing! Every aspect of my life has changed, from what I eat, the way I use the kitchen, the people I surround myself with, what is going into my brain on a daily basis… everything has changed.

Recently I had a good friend “sacrifice” our friendship. That’s a choice that she made and I’m a little sad. Sad is a good word. I’m not hurt or mad.. just a little sad. Today I think I sent my very last text to her. And through the sadness, I’ve been asking God why? Why am I not surrounded by friends? I have LOTS of acquaintances, but the people I share my daily life with are few and far between.

BUT GOD is always good. Always. He’s taken the time to speak to me and tell me that He is replacing people in my life … people to mentor me into the person He needs me to be in order to become who He wants me to be. This person will minister to others … I might not know the how or the when but I’m trusting Him and obeying.

How is He working in my life? Well, He has given me such a hunger to know Him more. Through reading the Bible, Bible Studies, praise music, conversations with my kids about Him. I am just in awe of His great miracles that he works in my family on a daily basis. He is also giving me a new perspective on family. I want to spend more time with my parents and my in-laws so I have started family dinner nights. I am cooking and having them over once a month, on different nights. This is our first month with my side of the family and the second with Jason’s. We also just returned from a week long vacation with his parents. It was good to spend time with them. I also talked to my mom almost the whole way home (which was 13 hours).

He has given me clear direction in homeschooling. We are making changes that feel right for us as a family. This time I’m not just following the new shiny thing that’s going to fix all of our problems… It’s actually not costing me anything (WHOOP)! I’m mixing my teaching background into the instruction and modifications that T needs, while still challenging him and teaching life skills. It’s been a hard road to get here, but I feel such peace about it all and Jason is 100% on board.

The more I am in God’s word, the clearer I hear His voice. And the clearer I hear His voice, the more I rejoice. He has given me 2 scriptures today:

Jeremiah 29:11 NIV “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you home and a future.”

1 Corinthians 2:9 “Eye has not see, nor ear heard, nor entered into the heart of man, the things God has prepared for those who love Him”

They keep me going… and the more I’m in scripture, the more I fall in love with the Holy Trinity.

What are some verses that keep you going? What are some of your coping mechanisms that help you when you are sad?