What do you do when you fall on hard times? I’m surrounded by friends and family that are really going through it. I pray and pray and pray but wish there was more that I could do. One thing God has been doing, as I pray, He puts a song in my heart. The 2 songs from today are How Great Thou Art and On Christ the Solid Rock.

I’ve clung to these praises of our good Father. For He is good, always… even when things are spiraling out of our control. That’s actually where He wants us sometimes… lots of things are out of our control but there is comfort in knowing that there is NOTHING out of God’s control. He is in control of EVERYTHING… even the not so great parts.

I was thinking … looking around at life, mine and others, and what God brought us through to finally give Him our whole hearts; our whole lives. I got cancer. Before cancer I was living for myself. I was super ambitious and working crazy hours, letting my kids struggle for my own personal goals. Looking back, God took the mess that I was and through the very lowest of times, brought me lovingly back to Him. It was through devastation… that He made me righteous.

I have a family member that hit rock bottom and through almost losing everything, God led him to Himself. It’s an amazing change watching him live for Christ.

I have a friend who is so so weary. I pray for her often. She has a tough job, a tough history, and is finding herself in a tough spot. I know God is letting her hit bottom to really give herself fully to Him. It’s so hard to watch and I really really wish I had the magic words to make her journey a little lighter. But God will do what He needs to do to reach you … the struggles are part of the journey, as much as I wish otherwise.

I have so many other friends who are really going through it. One lady is in ICU and close to death if God doesn’t intervene… another one losing a loved one to cancer in the near future …. another one … well, you get the picture.

This is the second time in the last couple of months that I’ve been surrounded by such devastation. The first time it happened, I recognized it as God speaking to me or getting ready to use me… I prayed that I was in His will. This time… I’m not sure what I’m supposed to be doing, but it seems like I need to be doing more than praying. But that’s all He is calling me to do. I’m leaving my heart open to His will and ready to go where He leads.